Monday, December 27, 2010


I hope that you all had a great holiday and got want you wanted from Santa ;3
Mine was pretty decent, though I'm a bit upset that I never got to do a christmas piece, so if I do one, it'll be a bit late.

Better late than never?

I currently have to finish my contest entry for the Inception contest on DA, so that'll take up my time the rest of today. Then after that, who knows.
I feel like pixeling a bit.. we'll see what comes of that. -shrug-

I hope you all have a great New Year's!

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Blog Look Update

Updated my blog look a bit. I'm starting to enjoy how its coming out.
Which is good, I've been fittling around with this thing for 3 days straight now. Oi.

Sunday, November 28, 2010

IMVU - getting back into it

I've been very busy tonight...

I haven't updated my IMVU account in a very long time. I've recently gotten back into the swing of that site, so I'm trying to make sure everything is updated. (doesn't help I haven't been there in a year or more..) I've spent some cash here and there to catch up on credits, to get things done. That's somewhere I shouldn't be blowing money right now, but I figured eh.. I have it, why not?

So, I caught up with old friends, made some new ones, revamped everything, made one sticker so far and made an awesomesauce avatar, and I'm getting back into being a developer or items and such on there. Things are swell. :3

Well.. minus my lovelife. That still sucks. haha.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Friday, November 19, 2010

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Monday, November 15, 2010

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Driver's test? o3o

I booked my driver's test (finally).
Its December 16th, and I'm just a tad nervous. x_x

Wish me luck~

Sunday, November 7, 2010

How to save a life..

(Names were changed for the safety of those involved)

So, on the 4th of November, I went over my friend Bob's to watch movies.
Simple and innocent enough, right? I go there around 7pm.. then leave around 11:30pm.
I get home, talk to Patti on the phone for a bit. Its around 4am and I get a text from Bob... a very strange text. I tell her about it and she tells me to call him and see what its about, so I do. To my surprise.. I find him in a panic on the phone, talking out of his head about how he's going to KILL himself. I try to calm him down, no good. He won't listen. Nothing I do is going to change his mind, so I think of a plan...

I make him call his bandmate Jason, for one last goodbye. Its "only proper".
So, he hangs up and does so. Me, hoping that Jason answers, I cross my fingers and call his wife, Lisa. Happily enough, he does answer and remains on the phone with him, also trying to talk him out of it. They're very close, so I knew he wouldn't let him die either.

Lisa and I plan with Jason for him to take us (Jason and I) to Bob's house. Only unfortunate part is that they had no bloody idea on where he lived. Fortunately for me, I was JUST there a few hours ago. Had I not... he would have been dead on the porch of his house by morning..

So, while Bob's still on the phone, Jason drives and picks me up, and we head to his house.
I'm quiet the whole ride there so he doesn't know we're coming or that he's with anyone just incase he hears the car through the phone. We eventually arrive once I barely remember in the dark, where exactly he lived. The houses around him look all identical, so I had to remember things I saw to be sure. Thank goodness they had corn stalks on their pillars.

So we go around the back, where Bob was awaiting death from the overdose of pills, alcohol, nyquil, and anti-depression meds that he took at once. He looks terrible. One side of his mouth drooping down to the side, he's barely conscious. It was a horrible sight.. its hard to just think about afterwards. But neither of us panicked, we had to do what we had to do.

We try to keep him awake as well as verbally fight him to try and get him to stand up and get taken to the hospital. He wouldn't have it. He would get angry and yell at us and tell us "Why can't you just LET ME GO?? Please! I don't want to be here!" It tore at us but we never faltered... he wasn't going to go out like this... he needs to live first. REALLY live.

After fighting with him and telling him "NO! You are NOT going to "drive" anywhere!" and such.. Jason went to go get his parents.. they were asleep. During this he tried to persuade me to let him up so he could drive off, but I wouldn't let him. To be frank, I downright bitched the boy out. I haven't been that demanding in a long time, but he deserved it. Soon, Jason came back with his parents, and they just gasped in horror at the sight of their youngest son, helpless and dying on their porch.

We tried to explain what happened, and told them all that we knew of that he took. He broke down a bit and said "I don't wanna die .. but I do.. I don't want to be here!" in a panic when he realized he was dying from this. His father went inside to call the hospital while his mother sat in front of him, panicking. Many bottled emotions came from the both of them.. it tore at your heart to watch this happen. They talked, cried, and yelled at each other before Bob gave in and said yes to the hospital - though he refused to go with anyone but us. His parents didn't mind at all, so we picked him up, and got him to the car after a bit of difficulty. We threw a cover over him and as Jason drove, I held his hand and shook him to stay conscious. He yelled a few times, but I could care less about his attitude at the time.

Halfway to the hospital, we had to pull over so he could throw up some of the crap in his stomach (finding out later that it saved him from kidney failure). Eventually, we arrived there, got him inside on an Emergency bed. I didn't appreciate the dumb looks we got from the night staff, but hey they can suck it. His mom was a crying mess, but attempted to hold it together so he wouldn't get tense or go into shock. The medics and such came in and got him questioned and hooked up to IV's and such. The view once again horrible to see.. all the wires coming from the bags to him.. the gown.. the pale skin.. just terrifying.

Jason and I stayed there with his family (and the other relatives that came and went) for 3 hours before we had to leave. They all teared up a bit, thanked us for what we had done for their family. Bob, himself gave me a hug and a kiss, followed by a "thank you". I'm hoping this changes him for the better, he'll get the help he needs there.


Edit: We went to see him the next day, to find he was doing MUCH better.
He had color to his cheeks again, a smile on his face, optimism, and love in his heart again.
I'm hoping this all works out for the best.

He's a fighter. He can do this. <3 (Lisa, Patti, Jason, and Bob are all fake names)

Sunday, October 31, 2010


Today is Halloween.
Haven't slept for almost a day.
Got a haircut.
Been called FAT twice in a day.
Drove some.
Slept like a mofo.
Walmart & ENP.
Fried foods & shakes.
Future meetings.

Friday, October 29, 2010

Yeah so..

My boyfriend and I broke up.
We separated on pretty neutral grounds, so we'll still be friends.
But sometimes it just doesn't work, oh well. There's more fish in the sea.

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Halloween Party

So, yes, I went to a Halloween party last night at my friend Erika's place.
I'm too lazy to type everything that happened, but to say the least there were ...

Costumes, disco lights, drunks, flirtation, cops, violence, smack-talkin, zombie strippers, and frickin' cupcakes.

Sound like a party? Ha-yup. XD

I doubt Erika will want to throw another one after this.. =/
I hate people that ruin things for everyone. Bah.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Mehhh layout.

I seriously need a new layout for this thing.

The preset ones are so lame.

I'll have to work on some headers and stuff.

/end random thoughts.

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Looking to Print :3

I'm thinking on trying my hand at making tangible objects such as charms, tshirts, stickers, etc. I need to take a step towards what I wanted to do for awhile, sell things.

Looking at things on the internet is fine and dandy and all, but in reality, I want things people can wear and look at outside of here. And hopefully, have people talk and ask "where'd you get that?". And the idea of little Gordy charms and such floating about the world makes me smile. :3

Its just an idea right now, but if I can figure out where to get these things printed, it'd get me started and I can start selling things on my Etsy shop. (which is getting dusty since there's nothing to sell in it just yet). Link here --> Bookmark it, I plan on adding things soon.

Saturday, October 9, 2010

Halloween DA avatar

You do not have permission to use this avatar, only I do.
So there.

Thursday, October 7, 2010

He's gone..

Yes, my bf is gone and now I'm alone.. and I'm a sad panda. =(

Time to be a mopey face. >>

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Camilla pics

These are some very crappy photos of the faceup/makeover done to my bjd recently.

Gah I wish my camera didn't suck....

Monday, October 4, 2010

Doll Faceup Done! ... Finally

Hey all. As the title says, I finally did my BJD's faceup. It only took me like 98349043 years to do it, but its finally done. She turned out much differently than I first pictured. I found some neat marbles on an old piece of jewelry that I substituted for her eyes. As odd as it looked, after I finished, it actually fit her quite nicely. I kept going and going, adding dodads and whosawhatsits galore. Of course all this fun took me about 6 hours of trial and error... which wasn't all that fun.

But, I'm happy to say that I'm pleased with how she came out, and that she now has a face and personality... it only took a few long months to get started. ^^; Now that my doll has a face, clothes, and makeup, I can look forward to sewing clothes for her and crafting objects/jewelry to go with them as well. Yay for creative outlets! 8D

I'll update with a picture or two soon .. as it may take awhile since my camera is on the fritz.


Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Been a bit down lately..

A lot of drama has gone on lately, as well as the fact of my boyfriend needing to go home to Arizona because of family medical things..

So I'll be without him.... for who knows how long.
I don't know when I'll see him again, or if I will, or whatever.

I'm very upset by this fact, but I can't let it keep me down.
We will still be together during his absence, and we will see how it goes from there.

I love him, he loves me, so it should all work out... I hope.

Monday, September 13, 2010

Binkybaby Commission 6 - Done!

He really liked it, and I do happen to like how it came out. So I guess it was worth it in the end. =)

Wednesday, September 8, 2010


I need to get a break from work soon.
I haven't had the energy or have been awake enough to work on anything and it truely bugs me...

I'll never get things finished at this rate. Blah.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Binkybaby WIP lines

Commission WIP for Binkybaby on Deviantart.

Sunday, August 22, 2010

Ren Faire - Opening Week

Willard and I just got back from going to the local renaissance festival today. It was fun but kind of boring since I left.

Since the management changed, most of the cast is different, and some of the fun events/acts got taken out.. ... .. its turned lame. I hate to think a place I once loved, went this direction.. but I guess it always has to happen. It was on its way down anyway, the guy that owned the land was a doucher, so its his fault.
I blame his old self.

It was nice meeting up with people I haven't seen in agggges, especially my old boss from there, Beth. She's pretty cool, we bought a Mortar & pestle from her, something we finally managed to get.

In other news, my search for a corset has once again been unsuccessful.
I could not find one for under $100.. its pretty ridiculous. I mean, I completely understand the idea of profit and yadda yadda... but some of them... they definitely weren't worth that much.
But whatever, you'll have overpricing at small shops sometimes.

I can't say I bought anything productive besides a homemade perfume with a fancy bottle from one shop. The husband made the perfumes and the wife maintained the shop and bottled the perfumes. She was super sweet, too bad I didn't catch her name..

Honestly, I didn't think we'd stay as long as we did, but for some reason the day just flew by. I figured we would be there for maybe 4 hours at most, but we ended up staying from 12-5:30. I'm still not sure what we did all that time.. it really didn't seem like we did anything interesting.
I guess the atmosphere of the faire just made time pass quickly, but go figure I want to be somewhere and time stops being slow. XD

I will have to search online, or save 40983459034509348 dollars for one of the homemade corsets at the faire. Either way, I MUST GET ONE. I'm determined.
Maybe i'll try haggling..

We plan to go back soon, maybe next time I'll remember to take pictures. XD


Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Mr. Fancy Dead Fishbones

Always the "life" of the party.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Its cold outside avatar

Available for free use~
Let me know if you use it! =3

Starting a Comic

So, as the title says, I'm about to start a comic.
This comic will be about my new story/comic, Citrine.

I've been trying to get this idea out of my head for a long ass time, so this is the only way I can think of getting out it out there and keeping the juices flowing.

I've been working non-stop for the last 7 days now, so its been a bit hard to rest my mind enough to produce something useful. Every way I turn and think, I find a road block.
I then get distracted by trying to figure out the road block, and then I get frustrated and get away from my work.

This is an ongoing situation I can't get over. I need to find a way to stay focused, its really starting to make me lazy.

But anyways, I rediscovered that I have a Flickr, so I'll be posting some arts and concepts, as well as comic pages on there. Look forward to something at least.


Monday, August 9, 2010

Binkybaby WIP sketch

New Blog Layout

I think I've finally set one on layout finally. The older/other layout was just too contrasty for how I've been feeling lately. So, as I feel more calm and pensive, my tastes do as well.

This one is much more fitting I think, and prettier.

Let me know what you think.



I hate allergies..

They leave me unable to see clearly for awhile...
I'm trying to do art for once, and my cat thinks its a great idea to try snuggling right now.
(aka. I'm allergic to cats.)

Normally I'd be all for petting her or cuddling her, since she seems to not be as happy or healthy as she once was. But, she in turn makes me ill.

I know she doesn't mean to.. but why rub against me while I'm doing art??

....some things are just more important.

Art > Cat > Clowns > your left foot > Bubblegum > Forts > Popsicles > 3 eye alligators

I mean come on,.. everybody knows that.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Sunday, July 11, 2010

The Sneezles

Pretty self explanatory XD
Drew this after having a sneeze attack from allergies x_x

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

Birthday :3

Well today was my birthday (as its 11:42pm now), and I'm another year older.
21 to be exact.
I don't exactly feel older, but I have more privileges now. Though.. I won't use them much I'm sure.

I went out to the bar with my parents and Red Lobster with my mother.
I had more fun at the restaurant. I got a giant margarita cup thinger filled with pina colada stuff. AWESOME 8D

The day is over in 15 minutes now... -sigh-
It wasn't as eventful as I had hoped it'd be as a young kid.
I figured there'd be a huge blowout, a big day, big party, maybe a car involved? .. and it was the total opposite of that.
Oh well..

it sucks getting old.


Sunday, July 4, 2010

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Wedding weekend

Hello all, I haven't been posting any arts lately due to last minute wedding stuffs and work the past week.
Tonight was Erika & Jeremy's wedding, it was really nice and the reception was super fun. I'm very glad she asked me to be a part of it. :3

I unfortunately don't have much of a break because those were the 3 days off I had after a straight 9 day period in a row of work.. which blew. I only get the 6th off (for my 21st birthday) and then the rest is work.. oh joy D:
Hopefully I'll be doing something fun on my birthday, at least go out somewhere to eat with the family, just to get out of the house.

I'll try uploading pictures and stuff later, as well as some things I've been working on. Tootles.


Friday, June 25, 2010

Ok.. scratch that.

As it turns out, I won't be going on hiatus afterall.
I have way too much fun between Deviantart/Solia Online/ Facebook/ and just listening to music on so .. I shall stay. c:

The other night I got angry at how stupid my DA journal looked, so I revamped it, and this is what I came up with :

I think its more "me"... not to mention I haven't done a Gordy piece in an effing long time. So this makes up for it :3


Sunday, June 20, 2010


I think I'm starting to slip into depression..

things aren't going well, and I'm at a loss of what to do.

I think I'm going to take a hiatus from art for awhile until I can feel happy again, well, enough to do any art that is.

I don't know whether to go or stay, what will become of me, what I should do, etc... so until then, I'm on hiatus from the internet/art.

Friday, June 11, 2010

Snim's World

This little guy came out of randomly sketching last night. I liked him so I kept the idea.

Monday, June 7, 2010

Random freebie sketch of Evil Tink's character, Alria. I've owed her an art for quite awhile because of my old Solia freebie thread. This is the result.


Saturday, June 5, 2010

Sorry for the inactivity + Kiss me

Hello all, I haven't posted in a bit. Life has been a bit hectic, to say the least.
As you see above, I've taken some time to draw something a little more time consuming, for a contest of all things. Since Nobody has commissioned me as of late, other than avatar sites, I had to do something other than the original things I do in my portable notebook.

I don't really enjoy drawing on paper, since I've become accustomed to digital art. And eraser marks/blurry smears are just irritating, bottom line. -__-

I have a few concepts still in there beginning stages, I just happened to crank this 6 hour project out because of.. well... a contest deadline. XD Here is a link to the contest this was done for: Click here!

I plan to be more active and get more practice this summer. Since the seasonal people coming back from school are taking my hours at work, I'll have plenty of time... *cough*

Hope you all had a wonderful Memorial day!

Saturday, May 22, 2010

Rogue Antivirus on the loose!

Hey guys.

I just wanted to put a notice out there that another rogue antivirus fake is out traveling the interwebs again. I just had it attack mine a few hours ago and I just now got it off. I had to follow steps and such to get it off, but luckily I found something. It freaked me out.

If anyone comes across a green screen warning you that you're infected, and something called "Security Essentials 2010" .. DO NOT BUY IT, DO NOT DOWNLOAD IT!!
This pops up soon after it says you're infected like a bazillion times, so don't fall for it!Apparently its spread through things like Active X, and random ads are spreading it, so if you're on something that has changing ads somewhere on the page, be careful.

If you happen to come across this, or know someone that is infected, tell them to go to this link: HERE This is how I got mine off. Its not hard to follow and works like a charm, thank goodness!

I just wanted to spread the word to prevent others from letting it ruin their computers, so spread the word please, lets stop it in its tracks, thanks!

Thursday, May 20, 2010

Getting back into the swing.

Hey everyone, just going to post two freebies I've done tonight for some Solians.
I'm trying to get some practice in, since I haven't used my tablet in forever to do any art.

I almost forgot how to use it T_T... not really.. but its been awhile.

Thursday, April 29, 2010

Fun Times

Hello all, haven't posted in awhile. I've been really busy with work and cleaning of sorts.
Willard and I have rearranging the kitchen and cleaning a bit, its starting to look more and more like a studio apartment. :3 But in accordance to the last post, this week with Willard here has been amazing. Everything has gone smoothly, and I couldn't be happier to have him. Not that you all really care for the mooshy stuff. XD

We've also been hanging out with our good friend Kalyn (Ghosty), and its been great fun. I've never been around such a goof with so much energy. She makes me feel young again. *cough* Not like I'm old or anything XD

But anywhoozle, here's some happy photos to express the awesomeness of my week:

More art on the way! Going to work on some Citrine ideas with Willard tonight, I need to get the ball rolling. :3


Thursday, April 22, 2010

Happy Earth Day!

Just as the title says, it is the day of Earth. I hope that you all are going as green as you can, though I've already failed at that pretty hard today. So, I think I'll redeem myself by walking somewhere rather than ride in a car. That seems pretty doable.

At least when I do, I'll have people to walk with. Willard arrives in 3 or so hours, then Kalyn is going to pick him up. (with or without her raver clothes haha)
I'll make sure to take pictures of the fun day ahead, it'll give you all something to look at, at least.

Well this one is going to be short, since there's a lot to do.
Though I'm not sure the next time I'll be able to write on here, since we're technically moving into mary lou's house, but I'll make it a point to do something else during the day so her and her man can do things and be alone. So we'll see how this all ends up, hopefully not as bad as last time.. roomates are hard. >>

Also, random note, there's ANOTHER Shrek moving coming out?... what else could they possibly do with that story..


Wednesday, April 21, 2010

The day approaches

So, Willard has been delayed about 6 hours. Apparently, a group of people missed the bus, as well as himself, and they had to wait 3 hours for the next one going the same way. Fun...
So, starting the day early, isn't going according to plan anymore, then again.. what does anymore?
Tomorrow should be a fun day overall though. What with Willard coming finally, us hanging out with Ghosty, finally having a place for us to stay, etc. I'm pretty optimistic that it'll all go pretty well, so let's hope its not to waste.

Paypal has been ticking me off again lately. They like to think its ok to verify my bank, then take it back off without telling me. I had to spend money with my paypal to realize it, luckily its been only one thing.. but, now I have to figure out where that charge went to, hopefully nowhere bad.
It pretty much told me that its the bank itself denying all these transfers, so I have to go flip on PNC for the fifth time, to get things to run smoothly. Gosh, do I hate banks.

Well I'll stop rambling for once and get to cleaning the house for tomorrow. Also, oh snap, I drew something! It'll have to do for now, once again, no time to really sit and do anything on Photoshop, and at the moment I'm too lazy to take pictures and load them.

Here's to a better tomorrow!


Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Home is where the creative heart is.

In the past day, I've been really getting back into jamming to music. I realized just sitting around that its been too quiet around. With that idea, I popped on my playlist and had a sense of euphoria.
I haven't heard some of these songs in ages! Its amazing what listening to an old favorite can do. I've got into a happier and optimistic mood from it, its refreshing. :3

Willard is currently in Texas, as of 1am EST., so he's alittle farther than he was. I'm sure that trip will make a lot of distance during the night. All the plans that became broken out of nowhere, are now fixed with a bit of quick thinking and alternation.
My good friend Ghosty (Kalyn) and Mary Lou are my life savers during this rollercoaster of a mess. They deserve much kudos, and a cookie.

I've been working on concept sketches for Citrine, in my notebook. I can't settle on anything for the characters on the "evil" side. I have the general idea of the type of people I want them to be, just not the details on them one by one, if that makes sense. I've done off and on revamping of the outfits for the characters as well, I just can't seem to settle my OCD on one in particular. I don't want them changing too much, if at all during this story, so I have to fight my brain to come up with a final idea. Its driving me nuts.. and is mainly why I haven't produced much on Citrine lately. Well, that, and the fact that life has been a mess lately..

Just being back home, in front of my computer, with my cat and old environment are making me feel much more productive. Something about the incense, the lighting, the old things I use to look at everyday.. ah bliss!

I wish I would get more commissions, I haven't had one in a good while, and it kinda of leaves me feeling unwanted. =/ But, I know that I'll have to at least get something going with Citrine to capture attention, hopefully positive, or neutral if anything.

...ah .. I miss you Daft Punk. d^_^b


Monday, April 19, 2010

When are things going to get easy?


I've had it planned for months that Willard was to come here, and my ex-roomate Ashley promised that she would pick him up. And now, as I text her, I'm finding out she may not be able to...

and on top of that.. he leaves tomorrow morning to come here...

So, I'm sure you can imagine that I'm just a tad stressed.

Also, I've unfortunately gained a decent amount of weight, no longer fitting the brides maid dress I originally fit back in november. So now I'm pretty much screwed unless I drop about 40 lbs in a few months... No more food for me..

From all the above, I haven't been too happy. I haven't had the mood to just sit down and work on art. Everything keeps crashing around me, so the want to create has dwindled..
Making this more and more a journal then an art blog, which I originally wanted it to be, and still want it to... but at the moment its not, and I apologize. If things were better, there would be more to see.

I'm sorry life is made of fail at the moment and there's nothing to look at..but I promise there will be soon.


Sunday, April 18, 2010

Work work work

Well, I haven't had time to draw at all since that first blog.
Work has kept me over a bit longer than expected lately..

All in all, no free times for me.. .boo. T_T

But on the brightside, on the 22nd, Willard will finally be here! Yay >w<
So, at least I've got my optimism back. =3

I'd be much better off if I had commissions coming my way again.. I really haven't seen one of those in ages. I don't know if people just think I suck, or everyone is just poor. >>

I suppose I'll try to stay positive, as better things will come one's way in that case.
Maybe now that I've reached a computer, I can spit something out later tonight or tomorrow, we'll see.

Ta ta!


Friday, April 16, 2010

My first artblog!

Hello all!

As said in the title, I finally now have my own artblog! Woo!
There's finally a place to rant about the happenings of the day, as well as post something art related that's in my head.

Sounds like a win win for anyone reading yes?

As my friend Andrew pointed out, I need to start doing more art, so, this is to help push that idea along. I'm pretty sure it will work out a bit better since this will be a just me space.

Currently, I'm addicting to the Give a Llama, Get a Llama "party" "event" thinger on Deviantart. Collecting more llamas, making my badge level up to being a more super or fancier llama... its all too fun. A bit repetitive, but still fun! So if you haven't already, get to DA and get in on the fun!

Anywho, I'll update this later with more sketches / ideas / rants to keep you all updated.